Okay so i know i don’t update this thing anymore but it REALLY comes in handy for times like these when i can’t tell anyone about my problems like right now. First the good news is when i visited my high school for club activities and Ms. P my old counselor said to me that she wants me to become a leader of the group. And like they’re gonna pay me for it. Its not gonna be much though. I don’t really know how to explain it cause i don’t know much either. But all i know is i will be a leader of the club and not just some alumni coming back to see her friends and taking pictures etc.
Anyways i’ve been needing to rant about this for a while but haven’t gotten to it. At work at the beginning of September i started to get trained into the Starbucks at the store. And i really enjoy it, its awesome. But about three weeks ago i had about 30 something hours just doing my regular job, bagging groceries. I kind of forgot everything to, i mean i had over 30 hours the week before. The next week i had ONE starbucks shift. Right off the bat my starbucks manager was quizzing me like “how many pumps of syrup go in a large latte” or whatever. And she kept quizzing me and i kept getting stuff wrong. Like i SWEAR she asked me “how many shots of espresso go in a large drink” i said “2” and she goes “no” and i was like “uh yeah, espresso shots right?” and shes like “uh i didn’t ask about espresso shots.” and i told her like “oh i remember how to make this drink though.” it was called a caramel apple spice. and i started explaining it. and she stops me and goes like “thats not right. cinnamon dolce latte?” i was like “uh.. idk?” i never made a cinnamon dolce latte before. i don’t even know what it is. Like she wasn’t being a bitch about it at all or anything. She was being kind. Well she wasn’t giving me an attitude or anything.
Then she told me later “You have to motivate yourself to remember better and more if you want to work back here.” The next day our new store manager came up to me and was like “How are you doing? Hows starbucks” And i told him something along the lines of this “Well i really enjoy it. But you know last week i had about 30 something hours of just doing my regular job. And I kind of forgot everything. Kristi (starbucks manager) said i need to motivate myself to learn better if i want to work back there. But its kind of hard if i’m never back there.” He understood and he said to me “I’m gonna talk with her see if we can set aside just a week where you can do starbucks only” Its been two weeks. Nobody has told me anything and i haven’t gotten a starbuck shift since that day. I’m at the point where i want to walk up to her and be like “i understand if you don’t want me to work back here cause i know i screwed up pretty bad last time. But you can at least say it to my face.” but not as harshly.
my next rant is about these two girls who i’ve gotten very close to over the summer. one is 17 and the other 12. I was talking with them about inter racial marriage. and then i went “oh yeah keng (my brother) is planning to propose this weekend!” His girlfriend is mexican. But i told them to keep quiet about it because i was supposed to keep quiet too. And these girls are sibling of my brothers best friend so they were like “should we tell jim (the bestie)?” and i said no cause my brother should be the one to tell him. and then about an hour and half ago my brother calls me and is like “hey…. well i was driving to wisconson (where his gf lives) with jim……..” and i was like “uh.. yeah…..?” and he goes “well i heard that you’ve been telling……” and my first thought was “OH FRIGGIN GOD I TRUSTED THEM!” and to my brother i just went “i’m sorry! like i told the girls only cause it was a spur of the moment thing. but i told them not to tell anyone!” and he goes “..yeah that doesn’t work against them… they told the whole family……” and i’m like OH MY FRIGGIN GOD. and i just kept apologizing and was like on the verge of tears. then my brother just starts laughing. then goes “i was just messing. its okay. i just blew it off. but shh!” and we hung up after that. and i was still pissed and already and the verge of tears so i just cried out whatever tears i had and now i’m kinda pissed that the girls didn’t keep it a secret after i told them too. because its a VERY important secret. *sigh*
Sha Said:
on October 24, 2009 at 12:46 am
First, for the Starbucks part.
I think you should go up to BOTH Kristi and the new manager and have a talk. Like, not so serious. Hahaha. Let them know that you really want to work at Starbucks but since you rarely get many shifts, it’s difficult to remember everything in just one day. Then let them know that you would like to be trained again, but this time, bring paper and pen. Write down the recipes for different drinks and any important stuff, in case she quizzes you again.
Don’t worry k? It’s not your fault. Just go up to them and have a nice chat with them. 
As for the 2nd part.
I’m sorry that they didn’t keep their promises. Sometimes, it’s difficult to know who to trust nowadays, right?
Well, if there’s any other secrets that you’re not supposed to tell, you know now that you won’t be telling them. 
Unfortunately, for this case, it’s already been done and your brother have blew it off. So no worries k? Just don’t tell those 2 girls any secrets anymore. 
Don’t be sad k? Love ya!
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Rosa Said:
on October 24, 2009 at 5:40 am
Kitty you shouldnt trust people that easly, and do not tell things that arent yours to tell even if you need to tell someone.
And you should talk to both managers, and really talk to them about how you are feeling.
memoryetude Said:
on October 24, 2009 at 10:56 am
I totally forgot that you should be the leader of that group. Go for it, I know how you miss those things.